anything more than the truth would be too much

2008-01-15T16:26:00.000+08:00

RAUDHA(:

ok. so sum of u guys wanted to know and have been sms(ing) me. yusman fetch me from school yesterday. eventually, i cant get angry at him anymore. i dun noe. looking at his face: i felt LOVED. and i recall the things he did for me. jus like the lyrics in the song, hate that i love you by Rihanna:

You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong

2007-08-07T16:09:00.000+08:00

heyy there everyone!!~

if i dont update this blog... u can find me at

www.thesweetestvanity.blogspot.com !!!

sharing it with a special friend of mine. hahaha!!!!!!!! do drop by and feel free to tagg me there.. sorry for the inconvenience caused((:

[**i did link many of u guys there... credits to jin jin for providing our friends' links. hehe**]

2007-07-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

and so he will be back! damn happy!

jensen asked the class to join him for breakfast this coming monday. anyone interested. i am sure all of u do. first breakout at FOODCOURT A. those who are late wont be entertained k.

anyways-- weilin took over yongming today. he's on mc. awww... he must be sick. poor those who miss him. i dun like weilin too. she get frustrated easily. shit u weilin!! curses! dun ever get into our class again. lucky for those who werent present- u are so safe from all the seriousness!! hahaha!!

shall update more tonite!! wooohooooo=)

2007-07-25T17:53:00.000+08:00

not in the mood of studying with such a faci. tis is not a lesson. jensen- pls come back. w26c needs u.

and so later i skip the 'sex' talk tat i am suppose to attend today. i had no choice. i had to talk to him. at least for a while- it still counts. in a difficult time like tis- i had to. i sent my dad a msg but he jus wont reply. i need his adknowledgement. FAST.

I dun wan him to worry. he needs to focus on his extensive trainings. it jus adds to his burden. I'm sorry. VERY sorry. if it werent for me- things would be more clearer.

you cried for me tat nite. it hurts to hear u cry. the next day- u fell sick. u had a fever. i was so worried. i prayed for u. may god give u strength to go on for the week. i may not be able to meet u when u book out. u noe the reasons. its hard for me but i will try my best.

i was damn confused. i jus cant resist to be happy being among my friends in skool. they bring happiness to me tat is lacking back home. they always do. it has always happen since secondary school. it seems tat at that moment- in skool- all my pains were washed away.

2007-07-19T15:29:00.000+08:00

I am under PRESSURE.

GOD help me..

I know the reasons behind each party and i don't want any conflict. I had experience much in secondary school and it really HURTS till i once decide to stop SCHOOLING.

2007-07-17T19:39:00.000+08:00

PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB. GET THE PICS HERE. VERY BUSY TO RUSH ON JENSEN VIDEO!! SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED!!

**normal pic1**

**normal pic2**

**world peace!!.. hehe**

**walao!! like tis pic can? damn cute la**

**kyan can be more of a spoiler... heesh**

**a crazy pic to end the day**

2007-07-15T09:59:00.000+08:00

went to my aunt house to meet my grandma who was just discharge from the hospital. got to meet my grandma who is miss a LOT and also i could catch up with my cousins and meet my 2 little niece. hehe.. cute little stuff=)

**my cousins. my sis. little ain**

**ain and me**

**my little cousin cum bf and me. hehe=P**

**cute little stuff... HAHA**

**little ira**

**haziq bully me. ARGH!!**

2007-07-13T16:11:00.000+08:00

ok- so all the girls are excited to go for tis talk on the 17th bout some "vaginal discharge". haha! got so excited i think the guys got piss off especially SAMUEL aka 'priest'. too bad la.. w26c mostly made up GIRLS and only 7 guys. so guys- do bear with us. we do make lots of open dicussion. HAHA!! LETS GO GIRLS!!

hohoho!! saw jasmine, lisa and eugene takin GOH YONG MING car after school. i say it rite- our faci. u guys better not bully him hor... later ader angry!! hehe=P

**woohooo!! haha- juan jus aint up to the limit! so wrong! hehe=P**

**shocked- taken by dawn**

** samm is really HEAVY!!**

**CROSSED eye freak n the yet decent juan**

**tis is so wrong. teckwei asleep but holding hands with eugene [BIG-BEAR] .perhaps all the 7 guys in our class has decide to be GAY. i did remind my daddy tat i wont want another dad ok. heesh~**

**me and dawn- hands on hips suggest i am exhausted for the day. haha! u guys are really a bunch of cows**

AND SO I GUESS FRIDAY 13TH ISNT JUST A BAD DAY FOR ME!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING IT HAPPEN!!=)

2007-07-10T16:10:00.000+08:00

went to school from bukitpanjang today and i was actually having a bad headache:
-worse still there are no seat in 920
-bus was packed wif WestSpringSec students
-some chi gals in tat bus were acting bitchy in front of 2 chi boys [**heesh]
-i was sweating [humid weather]
-went to BP plaza McD -- bought my fav egg mcmuffin
-miss the 960 bus at 7:30 and tot was late to meet ShiYing

ended up she is later than me. **heesh...

problem statement with damn difficult word to pronounce PLAGIARISM

karen says it is pronounce as 'play'-'ger'-'rism'....

n i shame myself in front of the whole class by pronouncing 'intentional' as 'international' during my group presentation...

**adorra said that i look like a small kid eating my 'nasi lemak' for lunch break today.. haiz**

**jus when we tot we wanted to curse the last person to leave the class for lunch and leave our PRECIOUS labtops behind-- we saw teckwei sleeping under the table and we laugh instead**

2007-07-09T18:12:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY.. tot that it would be a "FUN" day. its NOT. haiz...

-had to wake up early in the morn to attend madrasah

-gd news: USTAZ AHMAD didnt came

-a new USTAZAH relief us for the day

-she is sooo sweet [smile alot!!]

went home straight and had to get ready to go a attend a WEDDING:

-my grandmama's neighbour got married

-got to meet HAZIQ [miss him so very much!!!]

HAZIQ and i were in good terms until he shoot this stupid thing out of a toy gun straight at my face!!

here are a pics of us yesterdae....

....we were in my dad car**

2007-07-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

woke up at 10am on a SUNDAY!! jyeah~! finally... i can wake up late on a sunday:
-no religious class
-dun have to faced my "flirty" Ustaz

11am- left home. went to IMM for breakfast and also to go on mothly shopping spree~

went home straight after that. mom was sick.. =(

went home at 2 and called him all the way till bout 4 where he needs to prepare and pack to bookIn at 7:45pm. haiz...

me and my sisters cooked spaggethi for the family [especially for mom who is sick]...

spent the rest of the day at home watching korean show- PRINCESS HOURS. i could still cry even though i watched it many times... haha~! silly me!

2007-06-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

ok...so- i woke up at 10am. actually i woke up earlier but went back to sleep. its a SATURDAY. this means i could catch up on my sleep and wake up late. was awaken:
-2 calls from my madrasah frens
-asking if today there is religious class
-was suppose to tell them last week but who bothers [they dun bother to come. they wont noe. tats their problem. muahahahahaha!]
-1 of them actually was already on the way to the mosque [sadly.. hehe=P]
-she scolded me
-i laughed out loud till my sis woke up and hit me in the head with pillows!!

10am. jus nice:
-clean up the house a little here and there
-bathe and so on....
-fetch my sis from mosque
-went BANQUET for brunch

1pm.:
-a call from yusman
-met at void deck
-he came in his cool red car
-had to do some last minute stuff [get the cam from the car]

and so- he brought me to marina square.:
-cant decide which muvee to watch
-watch SURF UP
-got a call from Crystal asking of i wanna join them at BUGIS
-saw Suharti working at the snacks counter of GV [oh no... she is my pri sch fren cum my grandmama neighbour la]
-got popcorn stuck to my dress [thanks alot to him. haha!]
-walk around...

then he brought me to KENT RIDGE PARK:
-he said it was haunted [not sure was it self-declare or TRUE. hehe]
-showed me pics in his hp
-shared sum story bout himself
-saw 6 helicopters [2 of which are carrying the country's flag- suspect it was for NDP]

then was in the car. he drove around:
-showing places [eg- where he lives...]
-went to Jurong East [bought mcD]
-after which i fed him the hot nugget while he was driving [sorry...]
-sent me to bugis to meet my family

NITE:
-went to vivo with my family
-sis wanted to watch SURF UP [not again!!]
-no shows at nite for tat muvee [yeah~!]
-ate at BANQUET
-went home

anyways- this is what i can conclude from A day outing wif him:
-he is really AFRAID of traffic police [lol~!]
-he hates BIG cars driving fast past him [he will feel tat he was being dared... *heesh]
-he talks a lot.. hehe~ [there was once i wanted to sleep and he said- go ahead. then he keep on talking. i couldnt possibly ignore rite...]

i did have lots of fun on the outing wif him today.. thanks a lot for everything. going to miss u so much when u leave for NS tmr~ hmmm.....

2007-06-29T18:39:00.000+08:00

todae is a big day for a special sumone. a special sumone who is the precious gift in my life. its my grandmama's 67th birthday.

jus remembered when i was on the bus on the way home. hehehehe~

what was more interesting was:
-my granddada came home from work
-open the door
-sang a birthday song for her at the door
-the rest of us at home smiled and cheer

SO ROMANTIC~!!! hehehehehe=

2007-06-28T22:02:00.000+08:00

went to school todae and by coincidence met fariz on the bus. in the morn he made me laugh by losing his balance and drop on a innocent woman. he is bigger in size as compared to me and shiying- still he cant balance himself. haiz... hahahahahaha. poor woman. she must be cursing!!=X

I HATE SCIENCE DAYS [worse still todae was science UT] but what was best was there was a change in teams. change in teams- still. i am not that happy yet. dun ever seperate me and my baby EMILY. hehe=)

emily aka BABY- i miss working with u=(

not to be bias- everyone in the team la [Sam. Adorra. Daniel]

i was damn lost in the problem statement. wat stupid ecosystem? what probability pattern?

CURSE the SCIENCE DEPT tooo...!!!

was damn irritated by sumone who treat me as if i am her dog and push me around. i am not going to do any favor for her even though how small it is. NO WAY!!! i dun live to serve u bitch. i hope u get that clear. [want to noe more bout tis story? PM me in msn]

ended class damn late todae. it was already 5 and our faci suggest to go through last week quiz. everyone was already DEAD and sumone said YES- 'tats the spirit'

spirit- are u sure? where is JANCIS spirit then? hahahahaha~ her spirit floats in the air is it? then it came back seeing class still going on. she went away again.

did ask sec sch mates in RP bout speech dae tis sat. whether they are going back or not. these are the replies i get:
-"is it a must"-lanna
-"u go and organised"-qiuyin
-"wait for teachers' dae"-juffrie
-"wat time will it start"-syakilla
-"dun wan. waste time"-alex [not a member of rp- NYP]

see how kentridge graduates are so committed their sec sch. hahahahahaha=)

anyways- i myself cant make it. busy. dun ask why. hehe=)

oh ya- lost my ezlink la. 'fark.shit.toot'- ransack the whole house already still cant find it. hmm....
oh where. oh where could it be?

tats all folks. gd nite!

2007-06-27T18:28:00.000+08:00

**me and juan version of a pic with the red rose

i bought for chuying for her bdae todae**

which is nicer?

hehe~

both are

i suggested the angle

credits to me

[haolian lor]

2007-06-26T22:03:00.000+08:00

came to skool and was all worried bout Enterprise UT. will i be able to do the calculation part? will i even be able to download the UTQ since my com has virus? i hope it does and so it did. i was so glad i could OR how am i suppose to calculate without using excel.

went to IThelpdesk to get the freaking virus off my com at 1st breakout. went back to collect it at 12+ and discovered that the guys there watched the GATSBY ad made by me and Dawn. worse still the guy ask "what gatsby ad?". pls la. trying to act that he doesnt know a thing. but it damn obvious that several guys were already laughing behind us. DAMN IT. spoiled our reputation. i shouldnt have put it in my desktop.

2007-06-25T21:05:00.000+08:00

start off the dae by going to school as per usual- haiz.. it damn boring especially when shiying is not around. went to school all by myself.. cheyy~[INDEPENDENT!!]

INDEPENDENT?? please la huh.. think too much. hehe~:
-met jasmine at woodlands interchange
-saw idiotic CHEWMING aka 'ahmeng' in the bus queue just behind me with a GIRL [wonder who]
-told jasmine what i dreamt of last nite

u wouldnt imagine what i dreamt of. LOCH NESS MONSTER!! random i noe. i dun even noe why it comes into my dream[??]:
-was on vacation in msia
-went to a farm
-monster swimming in a small lake
-mom says its a myth
-met a farmer
-farmer says it loves to hang around at the BEACH

---BEACH??!!
---what does it even do there?
---a small lake for a huge reptile?
---msia??

WEIRD.! jus coz todae was COGNITIVE n i got prepared of people telling me gary is 'cute'.

problem statement sucka!! BORING!!

freaking virus was found in my labtop. haiz... IT HELPDESK!!!

had my favourite CUTLET CHICKEN RICE during lunch. yumyum.

chat with fariz. he got upset with me coz i brought up the subject bout a particular sumone. SORRY~

jasmine accompanied me to CAUSEWAY POINT to get my mom clothes changed n to find a particular sumtink for that special sumone

went to shiying house to do RJ and stuff~

did revision for ENTERPRISE UT tmr

blogging

SNORE~!!! gd nite. [sweet][sugar][diabetic] dream to one and all.!=X

**me and juan getting all set for our gatsby ad**

2007-06-24T22:44:00.001+08:00

got my results for my mid-year exams[madrasah-'religious class']:

Fiqh 63/100
Arab 43/50
Tauhid 65/100

is that good or bad.? it doesnt really matter. i am planning to quit soon.. muahahahahaha!! but for one thing- my parents have to agree on it first..=(

anyways.. had a damn bored dae for a SUNDAY [madrasah just spoil my mood]:

-went hm straight after 11am

-got change into pyjamas

-ate maggie

-check email

-went to bed

-snore!!! [ZZzzzzz....]

woke up at 6pm to go out for dinner wif lina's family at CCK park:

-this are the list of items i ate:

----green tea

----rojak

----satay

----otah-otah

----rice

----bbq fish

----baby kailan

----baby squid

----fried egg

n of course everything is shared among 9 people except for GREEN TEA coz non in my family likes it because of its strong jasmine scent~ YEAH!! i rule my drink.. madness[for just a while]=(

**the 3 kids who make my life go wild**

2007-06-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

things seems to turn out great between me and my mom.:
-she bought me a blouse yesterdae n....
--she bought me a suit from ANGLIA todae[which cost $100]

she was so generous these 2 days and i really wonder why.[???]. normally she wil ignore me and just move on shopping her own stuff. hehe. hmmm...

THANK YOU~!!!

anyways.: MORNING
.woke up damn early for a saturdae.
.accompany my dad.
.send the family car to the workshop.
.wanted to stay at home and catch up on my sleep.
.mom refused coz she noe tat i will not wake up till bout 12.
.rauzha left my makeup at my grandmama house.
--DAMN FRUSTRATED!!

.:AFTERNOON
.fetch hannah from Al-iman mosque.
.went to causeway point.
.bought the $100 suit.
.ate nasi padang at the foodcourt.
.oh ya- saw samad ayob's son- the one i had a crush on before when i was 14 during the Expedition2003 [he did change alot(hot la!!) hehe=)] just glad that i bump into him today.

.:NOW-blogging:. typical day.

woow-weee..
-FREEDOM[mom and dad will be away tonite to attend company's dinner and dance=)

looking forward to a whacky nite wif my sis at home. cant wait~!!! wahahahahaha....!=P

**dun be convinced by the innocent look coz...**

**... she can get pretty retarded at times and u will get anoyyed when she is in this stage of mind. muahahaha!! [not a dragon la ok, shahrin. hehe=)]**

**found these cute coloured rubber gloves at METRO [causeway point] for use to wash the "jambam aka toilet bowl" - i guess. hehe. wierd face=)**

2007-06-22T16:52:00.001+08:00

todae was the worse dae in skool. let me list out why:
-emily didnt came to school todae[no one to seduce.hehe.. fyi-not a lesbian-]
-problem statement was bout VB codes AGAIN!
-there were only 3 people in my team
-team members wasn't cooperative
-had a bad stomachache after 1st breakout[couldnt recall what i ate though]
-had to do everything myself
-wasnt even sure how to start on the application
-was being psycho to 'pon' after lunch
-so busy didnt even went for lunch break

**CURSE the computing and mathematical dept!!!!

anyways-- some of my classmates did help me. thanks alot to:
-jancis[for the list of VB codes]
-jasmine[encouragement]
-syuhada[adopting me into their group]
-sandra[helping me to start the application and recognise some functions]
-nisa[helping me on the appication tooo]
-huikhim[helping me on the application tooo]

went out wif mum and both sis to VIVO while my dad attends his "grandisan" club stuff..
-bought a black blouse from TOPSHOP
-went to eat the hershey's choco cake at BK
-fooling around at the waddle pool and got wet

**a pic of me, my precious grandmama and my youngest sis[my grandmama had to shut her mouth coz she was too noisy. hehe. gd solution!!].. love u lots grandma!!

will be missing u so much. god bless=)**